Posted by Greg A. on December 2, 2002, at 8:34:44
In reply to Re: Anyone tell me about Bipolar II? » Greg A., posted by Dinah on December 2, 2002, at 0:03:40
Thanks for the insight into how cyclothymia affects you, Dinah. But why do you say that your symptoms seem different to mine? I see many similarities in what you describe. I don't seem (as yet) to get good hypomanias . . . but the agitated, depressed phase is exactly what I just went through. My depression has seemingly worsened in intensity with each relapse and I am finding that over the past couple of years that I am rarely free of it for even a day. Your description of 'deep down content, happy times' is perfect . . . and brings back memories of what it feels like to truly live. Vague memories.
What do you do in the way of meds etc. to help? I try to do what you do in divorcing myself from my emotions to function. I have even learned how to act happy and as a third party observer, actually feel nothing. One thing I have noticed lately is that I can cry over the way I am feeling, or even some simple family event. Usually I cannot get myself to let go. It seems good to be able to feel some emotion.
I am back at work - not sure if I mentioned that -and hating every minute of it. But it does pass the time. The only problem is that because I am in the office, everyone assumes that I am cured.
Take care Dinah.Greg
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