Posted by Dinah on November 10, 2002, at 10:12:59
In reply to Re: Has anyone successfully lost a therapist? » Dinah, posted by Pfinstegg on November 9, 2002, at 22:44:34
Ah, Pfinstegg, I think you are at a higher level of your development as a human being than I am. :) I have trouble internalizing anything, or anything positive anyway, and can't seem to internalize his understanding and accepting presence from week to week, much less indefinitely. Sigh. If he "felt" less than his usual calm, warm self, I pick up that energy and carry it for a while. If he "felt" his normal self, I pick up that energy and carry it for a while. But it doesn't last long. Maybe that's good in a way. If I can make it through the initial period, I might forget he even existed except on a very intellectual basis. I think I can retain some of what he taught me, but I don't think I can retain my sense of him. I do really admire your more philosophical and far wiser outlook. I do hope it's something I can learn if he stays. It certainly is what he is always telling me.
But I do think it's time and past time to do some serious work on my abandonment fears. Perhaps some CBT stuff like flooding, or EMDR work on imagining myself being abandoned? I don't know...
Many thanks for your wise advice,
Dinah
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