Posted by alexandra_k on February 8, 2019, at 15:00:17
In reply to Re: fools errand, posted by alexandra_k on February 5, 2019, at 3:42:11
and so... you are in or you are out, really.
i'm not entirely sure what to say.
people doing their best to oppose me -- means i must be close.
And work and income and housing new zealand people are being pretty great, which is important for the relocation right now.flight booked for thursday morning.
movers on wednesday morning.lots to organise.
i have some funds towards accommodation in auckland... but it won't last me more than a week...
so it's about whether housing comes through for me...
trust that i won't find myself on the streets or (no doubt worse) find myself in some kind of shelter.
i heard back pretty quickly from the ombudsman about my first complaint. the one about them not disclosing the rank list. case person assigned.
case people haven't been assigned to my having been declined (rather than conditional offer) from med, though. or to the other place trying to bully me into believing i'm failed and need to hand over more fees and sit on my *ss or revise things different but not better for my Chief over the next 6 months...
Chief has decided to do work... so that is something.
I have asked, again, to see these examiners reports that say they wish for me to be failed.
All this is just an idea in the head of my supervisor.
I have learned a lot over this last little while about... Well... I guess I was wondering how much things were corrupt (where I guess there is some kind of intention to violate the rules) vs an inadvertent... Incompetence, I guess you would call it. Inabilty to play by them. A lot of things I perceive as corruption seem to be performed by people who are incompetent. But I get to thinking who is it that hires them to be incompetent. That's where the real corruption lies. But maybe it is simply disorganisation and ineptitude. And in systems that are highly disorganised very very very very very very few people could competently navigate that system (if the system isn't actually paradoxical or something in which case it cannot be navigated at all).
Undergraduate study:
Do work. Hand it on deadline. Work gets examined. A range grade is achieved.
Research work:
Do work. Hand it in on deadline. WOrk gets sent off to external examiners. A range grade is achieved.MPhil work:
Do work. Hand it in on deadline. Supervisor has a meltdown that I didn't get permission from her to hand in the work I had done. She hasn't read it yet becomes she doesn't think it's ready to submit.She goes off at me about my 'arrogance' in thinking I didn't need her to do this.
After 1 week I am informed that they couldn't find any policy or anything that meant they could prevent it from going out to examiners. So it gets sent out... Late. After they spent 1 week crying about my handing my work in on time.
Comes back from examiners and 'accepted subject to changes' becomes 'it is not accepted in it's present state' becomes 'it's failed'. Apparently the examiners reccommended I be failed.
She hasn't done this before. I am pretty sure.
My memory of her was that she was smart. And quick in her thinking. And kind. I just don't see any of that, anymore.
I guess it is just the point of 'whatever'. Make the changes that are required fast as I can and send them back 'when can you get this back to me'? Eventually she'll burn herself out.
That seems to be what she wants to do / the way she wants to do it.
My application didn't get processed in a timely fashion apparently because she didn't make a case for it to get processed faster. She didn't say anything to get it done faster so they batch processed it along with the PhD scholarship applicants (which was silly because I wasn't eligable for PhD scholarship becauase I hadn't applied to do a PhD). But it meant she got to have my application before the VC and the other 'big wigs' (her words) which would have... Given her attention from them, I suppose. That she managed to get herself such a high calibre student.
She did not manage to get me enroled in time, however. And she also did not manage to get me any kind of scholarship, at all. I mean... The faculty ones are for... Well, it doesn't actually say, but given that I was a high calibre applicant (first division first class honours) and recieving no other scholarships...
But it was after this that she decided to change her signature on all her emails so it states her mighty position on the scholarhips committee...
This whole Chief thing seems to be coming from her.
I have been thinking 'what doesn't kill you makes you stronger'. I didn't agree with that. But that seems to be the way things are done in these parts so try and find the spirit of it when I am deadling with people who demonstrably seem to be playing that game.
Largely it is about inability to focus. It is hard to focus on the right things. I am fairly... Wholistic. Pattern recognition. But fairly wholistic. That means I start with a brain storm muddled mess and linerity, clarity, focus etc eventually emerge. Some other people think slower and more linearly in the first place. Not me.
Anyway...
Need to try and slow down and say less. Otherwise I overwhelm other people.
Get her to sign off on the changes quickly.
Refuse to engage when it comes to anything else.
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