Posted by alexandra_k on February 5, 2019, at 3:32:22
In reply to Re: fools errand, posted by alexandra_k on February 5, 2019, at 0:28:20
i am just... too old for this. i have spent too many years in philosophy.
i did not come back to this country to do work in philosophy. the best and brightest minds in philosophy did not head over here, for their destination. over the year's i've seen the developed world retreat.. receed.. move further and further away..
new zealand division of philosophy, see ya later. new zealand journal of philosophy.. did there used to be a journal somewhere.. see see ya later. all of it had to go. the people just bickered and sqabbled amongst themselves. graduate students revised things differnt but not better round and round and round.
no post-docs were hired... not much teaching was contracted out (people either had no work in philosophy so were forced out of the profession entirely or mopped up all of the work in philosophy so they don't have any time at all to do things like sign off changes in students work in the next 6 months).
no work was offered to me, either. not so much as any distance grading.
not so much as a fly you up for a week and you can give talks and lectures.
the division between the haves and the have nots. there is a real divide in this country between the persons and the non-persons...
i didn't come back here for any of this.
to see the quality of talks deteriorate over the years. to see less and less and less of the good overseas people... they're just not coming here, anymore.
in most of the talks and in response to most of the written work... stunned mullets.
i think i'm supposed to just sit in the corner for 6 months...
you know, put the doll back in it's box until it' fun to pull at it's hair for a while...
i feel like...
at somepoint...
someone completent in this country....
will catch on that i'm bright and things like... kind and so on...
in time for these things to still be there...
yeah?
perhaps?
we are supposed to be waiting for Maaori to catch on to philosophy.
i think that is the idea.
the idea of chief supervisor has caught on.
and there's this idea of how they can externally contract the examination (so the stunned mullet response to people's work isn't so... uh... embarrassing for the university, i guess...) and then all the supervisors have to do is pick pick pick pick at stuff using the externally contracted examiners report as a base or start or whatever.
it was supposed to be overwhelming. i see that.
to me. it was supposed to overwhelm me into giving up.
but when i saw it... what i saw was... the behaviorist think you do when things are being extinguished. it was a everything and the kitchen sink sort of a critique. you start off with the 'how is this phillllllooooosssooooophyyyyyyy? sorts of questions. you know... why aren't you doing macrame? how is this philospohy? isn't it really something else?
(seriously? this is a critique? what am i supposed to say or do in response to this really)
then you are doing xxxxx or yyyy kind of philosophy baaaaaadly. baaaadly. go away for 6 months and have a cry and try and submit it again and i'll go on about how baaaaadly you are doing all over again.
and i do just want to go away at this point. because... what's the point, again? why would i want to ... why do i find myself engaging in such a thing with such people..
and then the misconstruals. and so on.
anyway...
it's supposed to have everyone think that it's acceptable for the university to require me to pay 1/2 fees again.
i wonder how much he gets paid to write it or if he writes it for the sheer joy of it.
i guess he does get paid to write the critique. then gets paid again for another round. round 2.
the uni calendar / regulations allow for 2 rounds.
and so it seems that the university has decided that all the students... invariably (no exceptions) whether they worked hard or not so hard whether they be smart or not so smart whether they come in with extensive background or weak background.. all teh students... will go through that extended period of examination.
so the degree will take 2 years.
invariably
only i've done the changes that were suggested within 10 weeks...
so i'm just supposed to sit in teh corner for 6 months until i give it back to the examinaer again for him to do the same thing again....
this is academic philosophy in new zealand.
apparently stats nz f*ck*d up. there aren't as many people here. there aren't as many migrants here.
people come here and they say they intend to stick around -- but they don't. they leave.
they realise pretty fast that we treat people like garbage mostly. we treat them (and many of our own) like garbage. thanks for your money. the vc appreciates his holiday home or whatever else...
my supervisor did all theis stuff she didn't hve to ... and then doesn't do the things that would be good for her to do..
i just....
sigh.
why are these people in charge of me?
?
?
i really really really really really don't get that.
and then when they are why don't they let me get on with it, then.
?
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