Posted by soulnik on May 24, 2005, at 21:18:04 [reposted on May 28, 2005, at 13:21:23 | original URL]
In reply to (((soulnik))) hope you don't mind a hug, posted by partlycloudy on May 23, 2005, at 5:24:28
HUGS ARE GOOD!!! Thank you. I don't actually know that last time someone touched me when it didn't feel perfunctory or obligatory. A cyber hug with intentionality is a vast improvement.
I don't know if the battle is worth fighting. I don't even know what the battle is at this point. I'm so incapable of feeling anything but crazy and alone. My limbs are actually numb. I used to at least visualize a change or intervention from somewhere or something. Now I just sit here. Living is a stretch so healthy living isn't even on the agenda. I don't even have an agenda. My lack of motivation is seriously pathetic. I'm actually tired of myself.
poster:soulnik
thread:504183
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