Posted by muffled on March 31, 2008, at 0:21:29
In reply to Dr. Bob, question about chat... sucide triggers, posted by Happyflower on March 30, 2008, at 21:40:06
Oh (((HF))) I was in chat 1 a few days ago and didn't know you was in rm 2, I came by to say bye cuz I heard you were in 2 and I was leaving. But I somehow stuck my foot in my mouth.
I am SO sorry you are hurting HF. NOONE ever deserves what happened to you. It was horrendous.
You are SO NOT your Mom, not even close. You have raised your children well from what I understand.
The only thing I can think of as to why a person would choose not to chat with another, is that they are feeling fragile, and knowing that the other one is feeling fragile too, they choose to not interact.
OF COURSE this can feel hurtful. Goes back to the think of how I would like everybody to like me. But not everybody does :-(
But thats the reality of life, not everyone gets along all the time...throw some mental health crap into it....ugh!
So when I am feeling excluded then I TRY(note that I say TRY, I am not always successful) to bring the adult in me forward and understand its NOT all about me that I am being excluded. Yes I likely have some part in it, but so does the other party involved. So I lay no blame, but just have to accept the way it is, and if there's anything I can do from my end to help, I will try and do it.(like I go to T, to try and figger why I such a nut).
So I beleive you are cared for here HF, its a hard hard struggle for you right now. Sometimes I can babble, sometimes the time I most need babble, I just can't , cuz I am too fragile and it ends up hurting me one way or another, so I stay away.
Please be safe HF. Your family needs you. I for one would like to see you be able to return to babble when your ready.
I don't know what to suggest bout chat, other than stay away from it. I tend to stay away from chat particularly when I am feeling vulnerable, cuz it just can go so wrong, so fast in there...it can be very triggery.
HF I wish I could somehow send a bolus of caring your way and make you understand your not bad, and that I know your working so very very hard on healing from the horrors of your childhood.
I think you can do this HF. The fact that you managed to make it this far says ALOT, and your smart. I just wish there was an easier way to go thru this stuff.
Best wishes to you HF. I honestly mean that. And I am very sincerely sorry if I have ever caused you to feel bad. I known you awhile now, I would never ever want to hurt you.
M
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