Posted by rjlockhart37 on September 20, 2012, at 22:51:01
I've already done rehabs...4 of them...and NA meetings...and sponsers...and talk about it....but it doesnt take away the inciative to use...when you want to get pumped ip ... you make a choice to do it, no matter how much good words you say at NA meetings, or books you write of good teachings. The dude that started AA wanted alcohol on his deathbed...he started all the antialcohol but still had a taste and urning for it...i hope im not thinking of someone else but I think that's what I heard from talking with some people.
But yea. i didnt use it that much really so don't get the impression that im a meth looking person...im 240lbs...so I hope you know what that looks like...it was only occational but it was good while I did it...i got things done...but it caused dependence for some time now. I still think about it...the ultra feeling confidence and superhuman abilities.
Still I hate my life...and that's the tendency to want to drink alcohol at high amounts to allieviate the misery....i've gotta redo my life...that's all.
thanks for reading
rj
not a scholar but understand distress
Med:
Prozac 60mg
Lamictal 300mg
Fanapt 16mg
Nuvigil 250mg
encourage you to avoid false lights of enlightenment
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