Posted by rjlockhart04-08 on March 26, 2012, at 16:02:07
In reply to Re: I'm back but I have limited internet access » rjlockhart04-08, posted by Solstice on March 24, 2012, at 23:54:37
thanks Soltice. I am aware that the only way I can love others is if I love myself first. I have much self-loathing and results in sorrow and severe depression because I feel mentally incapcitite to even function on complicated tasks that require sustained mental effort. I usally give up quickl because of the frustration of maintaining mental tasks. I am on a path that I have to find happiness and its not living here at home. It's only a comfort zone that this place that I live in with my parents and I feel safe when I am at home taken care of. I truly believe thats what has prevented me to getting my own living quarters because I feel scared that I am alone, and if I had a room mate I know I would drive them crazy with my disorganized thinking, people have already asked me to get a place with me and I declined it, but for one I don't have the money to get on my own and I don't want to be a big muche who lives on other people's money. I just cannot do that, it makes me feel im using people.
Thanks. I will be posting some more.
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