Posted by Cydnie on March 14, 2011, at 9:44:14
In reply to Re: spondylosis » floatingbridge, posted by Phillipa on March 13, 2011, at 20:52:59
FB:
Did you ever get my babblemail? I wrote awhile ago. I haven't been back on pb for awhile because I was doing so sh**ty. Still not doing great. Actually wanted to come on and see if you started your emsam or not. Luckily I started it without the whole 2 week washout, and was able to take my adderall with it too. I had a reaction to it (because of my masto pain problem, look at how many of us have chronic pain and depression!!! Yikes!!) but also made me too agitated (I read last night, this guy started with 3mg, he cut it in 1/2, because he wrote that at 6mg, you get a ton of dopamine, but it's not high enough for the serotonin and norepinephrine, so if you're someone (I'm guessing maybe like me) who didn't need that much dopamine to start, it was too agitating, so he cut his in half! If it hadn't caused the pain flare-ups from my pain disorder, I would have tried that! I'm not suggesting it to you, just relaying what I read, and of course hoping you are one of the lucky ones who does so well on it, you're off this board only because you're so happy and have too much you want to do!!! I've been so depressed, otherwise I of course would have been on here writing to you too. Hoping you are doing a lot better, keep on writing in. The 2 week washout is terribble, I'm just starting mine today. Let us know how you're doing! If I ever read anything wrong, please just know it's just I think the meds make me spacey, and not because I'm not trying to read it well. I'm avoiding going downstairs where my poor little one is watching elmo in his exersaucer, because I'm scared of trying to go down there and disappoint myself by failing as a mom again, but I gotta go. Anyway, I really hope you're better, and you have a lot of caring people out here who understand and empathize, I always need to remind myself of that too, I feel so alone sometimes, I feel suicidal ideation. But then I come back here! It's a great site, and we're here for you!
poster:Cydnie
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