Posted by Ines on March 20, 2007, at 13:13:13
In reply to Re: Atypical depression vetted out of studies? » Ines, posted by River1924 on March 20, 2007, at 0:01:46
Hi River and Fred,
I so agree with the 'how were you 10 minutes ago when you were alone' question!. Your posts got me thinking- I don't so much pretend that I'm feeling ok but rather I actually do feel ok at the moment I'm asked. It's so true and I'd never thought of it like that. I seem to perk up immediately when in company- unless it is someone I really trust; paradoxically, the contrary can happen then, i.e. feeling really low. It's almost like I have permission to feel bad then.
You know, it really helps to hear other people's similar experiences. It makes me feel less of an outsider... Thanks a lot for support.
River, I've thought of the bipolar connection- and the possibility that I'd respond well to mood stabilisers. So far I haven't responded to any to the AD medications I've tried- in fact, they've made it worse. I'm on the waiting list to see a psychiatrist and hopefully I'll get a proper diagnosis then, and proper help. Although the idea of being diagnosed is slightly scary as well: 'have-for-sure': atypical depression & binge eating disorder. Very probables: OCD, generalised anxiety disorder. Possibles: bipolar spectrum, even some borderline personality disorder traits. Yikes!
Just a few weeks ago I did a depression scale test on a not-so-bad day and tested extremely depressed as well. It actually shocked me: I was expecting moderately depressed or something along those lines. I'm down to very depressed now. The small victories!
Take care and keep well,
Ines
(Fred, yes I am female btw)
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