Posted by pseudoname on April 5, 2006, at 8:38:53
In reply to Reward pathways and motivation.... » pseudoname, posted by Meri-Tuuli on April 5, 2006, at 7:26:15
Hey, Meri
> I wrote a long post but somehow managed to lose it!! I hate it when that happens!!
I'm glad you re-wrote it; I appreciate that. It's happened to me so much (lately from computer crashes) that I now save drafts of my long posts as I write them, either in a dummy email or in a Notepad file I keep in my Start Menu for just that purpose.
I realized last night (so I dunno yet if it's a reliable insight) that the criticism I fear is not of the job I'm about to do, but of my entire life up to that point. It's like by doing X I'll open myself up to deep, wide-ranging eviscerations of everything I've ever done or not done. Always by comparison to others, which was my dad's vicious style.
And I agree about physiology. The reward pathways in my brain are abnormal somehow. I was probably sensititve to begin with, and then the upbringing was a bad combo with that.
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