Posted by Sleepy Lizard on June 10, 2002, at 22:09:51
In reply to Just don't care, posted by josiejo on June 10, 2002, at 20:42:55
> Some days, I feel like I have all the answers. Most days, I don't even know the questions. I know, bad joke.
> I've been on meds for over 3 years, so in some circles, I'm still a newbie. Went round and round for awhile, and finally got put on 40mg of Celexa (started with 20mg). Most days, I can get up and go to work. Some days, I can't. Part of it is just plain laziness. But I think it's more than that. If I can get up, I can go to work and do just fine. If not, I end up staying home and doing nothing. On my off days, I rarely even leave the house anymore. I try, and I have good intentions, but I just don't care. I'd rather sit on the couch or the computer and waste time. It's gotten to a point that I don't go out after work at all. Old friends have given up on me and have stopped calling. New friends (from work... the few that I even talk to outside work) claim they understand... "I was depressed once" or "I take paxil for anxiety". They don't know.
> I'm supposed to go home (1000 mile trip) in 2 weeks for my niece's graduation party. I'm doing everything in my power to blow it off. And I can't. I'm afraid to ask anyone to take care of my cats. I'm afraid to ask anyone for rides to and from the airport. I know that once I get there, I'll be fine. I just don't know if I can actually make myself go.
> A really great guy from work has been asking me out... I come up with one excuse after the other.
> How can I make myself do anything?
> I've wondered if I have a mild (typical of me... everything I do is mild) case of agoraphobia.
> Does anyone have any ideas? Has anyone else experienced these feelings of total apathy?
> I'm willing to listen to anything.
>
> ThanksI know you can do things, you have it in you, by starting with small things and working up. You will build your confidence and learn that things can go right sometimes. I have experienced the same kind of symptoms you have described. Even when I have faced the fear and did things anyway, I still sweat and feel nervous. However sometimes I don't and things turn out great. I know it is difficult and I am rooting for you. I hope you try something that seems impossible for you soon.
poster:Sleepy Lizard
thread:109420
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