Posted by KarenB on April 5, 2001, at 6:38:51
In reply to to Karen B - another question, posted by avoet on April 3, 2001, at 22:02:23
Amanda,
I didn't know it was called "ruminating" until coming to this board either. I used to descibe it as a "broken record," playing the same thoughts over and over again. Sometimes in an almost rythymic manner, like one sentence that had nothing to do with much of anything. Sometimes I would lie awake at night, with fragments of conversations I'd never have, lines from movies, words, flying through my mind.
When depressed (this is when it happens - not when I am manic), I would ruminate for hours about how I would kill myself, in explicite detail. How I would sit on my car near an emergency room door, so that no one I knew, especially family, would have to find me. Thoughtful, huh? These thoughts would dominate me, although I knew in my heart I would never carry them out. I have two small children and a husband who love me, who would never get over it. I love them too much to leave them with that.
Try taking the Geodon earlier in the evening, at dinner, if you can't sleep. Did your doc tell you that it is absorbed up to 50% better if you take it with food?
Karen
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