Posted by allisonm on July 17, 2003, at 8:38:38
In reply to But what could a hospital do?, posted by Racer on July 17, 2003, at 1:48:29
Racer,
I'm glad that you are still here.
> >Maybe I wish I could find something to look forward to, to live for, since I don't seem to have it in me to end this hell. Right now, though, I just can't find it. It's taking too much energy to get through the days, and I want nothing except to sleep -- and not to dream. <<
I think that you can find something to live for. It may not be apparent, but your vision is clouded right now. Give yourself some time to sort things out. Now is the time to look out for yourself, be good to yourself, preserve your energy, as much as possible.
>> Have to go to a doctor tomorrow, since my late lover may have left me something unpleasant to remember him by..<<
Please tell me to go fly a kite if I am asking questions that are too personal, but I was wondering... How do you feel about this? Does his widow know that he may have spread STDs...that there may have been other women?
I am glad that you and your husband are seeing a counselor and hope that it can give you some measure of relief.
At the risk of repeating myself, while I was not in your exact situation, I also was in a pretty bad way at one time for a long time and I feel that I can relate to your feelings of being trapped with no way out, wanting just to sleep or be dead...wanting the pain to stop no matter what, even if it meant leaving the planet. It might sound trite, but time really can and does heal. Impossible situations that you think will never end can change.
Thinking of you and sending positive thoughts your way.
Alli
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