Posted by shar on January 31, 2003, at 1:46:03
Two people, or rather the dynamic that exists between two people, can make a difference in decisions of the 'to be or not to be' variety.
Today (Jan. 31) is the official ending of my contract with my T that I would not commit suicide for one year. As some may recall, we had a huge fight about it; I was pissed for weeks, and felt she was being horribly unfair, putting me firmly between a rock and a hard place.
So, it looks like I'll be around a while longer, because as the day of liberation arrives, I find I'm looking upon a different horizon, one with features instead of a bleak, cold, uninviting moonscape, even has big spots that are clear of haze and soot.
(No Pollyanna BS here, this is not a horizon full of crystals, bells, exotic plants, futuristic decor, and OMs. It's real life, trial by fire, financial hardship. There is also added dimension now to a life that had become one-dimensional. And, I'm ever so aware that descent is just a hair's breadth away.)
So, more posting is in my future, too, I guess. I'm sure that's pretty exciting for everyone!
Shar
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