Posted by shar on July 12, 2002, at 0:13:08
In reply to Re: Does history repeat or what? » shar, posted by tina on July 11, 2002, at 13:57:24
I'm just not so good at swimming up from the bottom of the tar pit to do much of anything anymore. I think of ASH often and fondly--esp. at the beginning when we were refugees, and so bonded. Most of the emails I write these days (except for here) are requests that friends don't hold my silence against me, that it seems to take so much energy to write.
Plus, as far as "friend" emails go, it is so hard to talk to someone about the symptoms of depression when they haven't experienced it. We all know that one, I think. It's like I can't find my 'happy place' to write a happy email from. I know some people take my silence as a sign of disinterest, and it's not that at all. It's the 'walking through molasses' and paralysis that makes it feel overwhelming to send a cheery note.
BTW, your post on social--wow, I don't recall hearing about that experience you had in school before (however, I may have heard and forgotten it because my memory sux so bad). That is very heavy duty, and must have been pretty terrifying dealing with it alone (before you got some assistance). Whew!
I sure wish we could all find a med or a path or a device that would bring us relative calm and contentment! Here's to us, I guess, for surviving, eh?
Shar
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