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Posted by Zana on April 21, 2009, at 16:04:23
This is my first post to "social." I've mostly been on regular ole Psycho-Babble. But I thought it might be a good idea to branch out a little, not focus so much on medication issues which obssess me. So... I'm depressed, have been for a long time. Eighteen months ago it became clear that my husband was going to lose his 4th job in 9 years and my "regular" depression burst into a debilitating, agitated depression. I didn't feel at all like myself for about a year, a little more. I wept all the time. Wanted to die. Fantasied about ways to kill myself. I know, not a very upbeat post.
I changed therapist. Am seeing someone I saw in graduate school 25 years ago (I can't believe it was so long ago.) He really helped me then when no one else had been able to. So that gives me some hope tho I was not so depressed then.
I am a psychologist and had a private practice for over 20 years. I haven't worked in the last 5 years because of my depression. I just haven't been able to get myself together to do the ground up things that need to be done.
So I have all my time to myself and am bored to out of my mind. And feel useless, purposeless. But it seems that I am not yet stable or strong enough to take on a job, even a volunteer position tho I know if I could it would help me a lot.
My husband did lose his job and has been out of work for about 6 months. He's doing his best but so far nothing. A few leads right now, firms that have expressed interest in interviewing him. Nothing solid. We may lose our home, a big old house that my husband and I live in half of and my parents live in the other half of. They are in their mid-80s and determined to die in their home. As you can imagine it is a complicated situation. Great in some ways; difficult in others. I can't even really think about what I'd do if we lost the house. And I know I need to think about things like when to put it on the market, where we would go.... I just can't get my head around it and like everything else you put off or ignore, it just makes it worse.
I started a new med about 3 weeks ago. This is med number 3000 I think. I felt great for the first couple of weeks, able to go out, drive around. I felt like myself. The last couple of days- it seems to be wearing off. I am very scared that it is wearing off, which a lot of med have done, and that I will be back where I was, a depressed heap.
So that's my story. I'm going to pay more attention to Social and see what's happening over here.
Thanks for listening.Zana
Posted by Sigismund on April 21, 2009, at 18:42:49
In reply to Just saying Hi., posted by Zana on April 21, 2009, at 16:04:23
Hello Zana
Don't worry, I like downbeat posts, especially if I can concentrate well enough to read them.
(My good news is that I'm radioacive, which is the best excuse of my life, and may explain my problems answering people who ask me how I am.)
The economic thing is depressing, in and of itself, as are our meds.
I do not know how people survive in this world.
Posted by TexasChic on April 21, 2009, at 19:39:36
In reply to Just saying Hi., posted by Zana on April 21, 2009, at 16:04:23
Hi Zana, good to see you here! I would like to write a big ole long response, but I'm not feeling so hot at the moment - think I'm coming down with something. But I look forward to talking with you in the future. Hang in there!
-T
Posted by Kath on April 21, 2009, at 21:03:19
In reply to Just saying Hi., posted by Zana on April 21, 2009, at 16:04:23
Hi Zana,
just a very quick Hello & Welcome. I don't have time to read your post, but will try to tomorrow.
:-)) Kath
Posted by Relapse on April 21, 2009, at 22:29:30
In reply to Just saying Hi., posted by Zana on April 21, 2009, at 16:04:23
Welcome Zana, I also have spent a lot of time on the med board, but I probably need to be here. Just because I have finally achieved my goal of taking my body weight in AD meds does not make me an expert. But if you have had some initial success with this new med, it may still be ramping up. I know I'm not telling you something you don't know. But for me anyway, with all the ssris I have taken, I usually have most of the affect (bad or good) within 2 weeks. However, this time my 3 drug combo with Zoloft really kicked in good in week 4. That was really different for me after taking ads for so long. That was 3 months ago. It's been a nice window of sanity. Ironic, but even in remission I to worry about the "signs" that I am being pulled back under. I know you have heard this many times. I also know this sounds hollow when your in pain, but you have to hang in and endure. You have so much going for you, and it will work out.
Be Well,
Dave
Posted by Phillipa on April 22, 2009, at 0:16:31
In reply to Re: Just saying Hi., posted by Relapse on April 21, 2009, at 22:29:30
Remission what's that? 14 years so far. Many meds later. Well Sigi is radioactive we know that as his hair ananylis can back that way. So we need to be careful around him. He's okay I guess I like old Sigi. Wonder what he'll say when he reads this . Probably just nuke me. Love Phillipa
Posted by Zana on April 22, 2009, at 11:18:59
In reply to Re: Just saying Hi. » Relapse, posted by Phillipa on April 22, 2009, at 0:16:31
Thanks to everybody for the welcome.
Zana
Posted by Kath on April 22, 2009, at 11:52:28
In reply to Re: Just saying Hi. » Zana, posted by Sigismund on April 21, 2009, at 18:42:49
Hi you.
Does that mean you can't hug people or be near babies? I was radioactive some years ago after a thyroid test that required me to become radioactive for a bit.
I'll hug ya anyway. (((((you))))
luv, Kath
Posted by Kath on April 22, 2009, at 19:42:58
In reply to Just saying Hi., posted by Zana on April 21, 2009, at 16:04:23
Hi Zana,
I really appreciate how much you've shared. Such a very stressful situation.
Let us know how your meds go. Maybe it is just a little blip; or maybe you will be able to up the dose?
sending you warm thoughts, Kath
Posted by manic666 on April 25, 2009, at 12:59:20
In reply to Re: Just saying Hi. » Zana, posted by Sigismund on April 21, 2009, at 18:42:49
ooooooooooooooooooooww i reckon i could be radioactive, i have been to every planet, an i glow in the dark, an i was a scientist at chenoval , when the reactor blew,
Posted by Sigismund on April 26, 2009, at 18:30:51
In reply to Re: Just saying Hi. » Sigismund, posted by Kath on April 22, 2009, at 11:52:28
No, I was just being silly about the uranium. It's about heavy metal toxicity.
An old friend of mine was given something radioactive for her overactive thyroid. She vomited it up in the gutter, and when the surgery heard of that they wanted to know exactly where so they could clean up the environmental contamination, which made my friend reflect on the things they use for medicine.
Posted by Kath on April 26, 2009, at 19:23:51
In reply to Re: Just saying Hi. » Kath, posted by Sigismund on April 26, 2009, at 18:30:51
> An old friend of mine was given something radioactive for her overactive thyroid. She vomited it up in the gutter, and when the surgery heard of that they wanted to know exactly where so they could clean up the environmental contamination, which made my friend reflect on the things they use for medicine.
~ ~ ~ Can you imagine!!!! Jeez Louise. AW - here I thot I knew a radioactive man in Australia!! Damn!
Hugs, Kath
Posted by Phillipa on April 26, 2009, at 22:49:28
In reply to Re: Just saying Hi. » Sigismund, posted by Kath on April 26, 2009, at 19:23:51
Kath Sigi is quite a guy isn't he and where you been? Love Jan, Phillipa, PJ
Posted by Kath on April 28, 2009, at 21:03:04
In reply to Re: Just saying Hi. » Kath, posted by Phillipa on April 26, 2009, at 22:49:28
Been preparing for my pottery sale.
Set up day is a week tomorrow!
spent hours tonight pricing & entering stuff in database
sigh Kath
Posted by Phillipa on April 28, 2009, at 22:01:00
In reply to Re: Just saying Hi. » Phillipa, posted by Kath on April 28, 2009, at 21:03:04
Kath believe it or not I remembered and figured that's where you were. Love Jan
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