Shown: posts 1 to 8 of 8. This is the beginning of the thread.
Posted by Deneb on January 2, 2006, at 22:15:25
I was chatting late into the night yesterday and I learned something. I learned that I'm at very low risk of committing suicide compared with some other people. I shouldn't worry so much about myself anymore. I think I understand why the pdocs I see are not worried about me despite all my threats.
There are some people who are very persistent and who choose and attempt very lethal methods. I'm worried about these people. It is one thing to think about killing oneself, it is another to act upon it. I'm a mostly no action sort of person. There are some people out there who attempt over and over again. I'm really worried about those people.
I realized that I never truly wanted to die for long periods of time. Sure I get depressed, but it doesn't last. There are people out there who are severely depressed all the time. I now marvel at the things that they are able to do despite their illness.
Deneb
Posted by Phillipa on January 2, 2006, at 22:22:39
In reply to Some people are in real danger, posted by Deneb on January 2, 2006, at 22:15:25
That's the truth. Fondly, Phillipa
Posted by JenStar on January 2, 2006, at 23:09:18
In reply to Some people are in real danger, posted by Deneb on January 2, 2006, at 22:15:25
There are people out there who are extremely unhappy and unstable, and I feel sad for them too.
But take yourself seriously, too -- please. If you feel that you're at risk, get the help you need. :)
JenStar
Posted by Deneb on January 3, 2006, at 0:29:54
In reply to Re: Some people are in real danger » Deneb, posted by JenStar on January 2, 2006, at 23:09:18
I don't know if I'm at risk or not anymore. :-(
I wasn't even that distressed when I took a lot of aspirin and ended up in the hospital. I planned it too. I kept reading about it, I thought about it for a couple of weeks and then I executed my plan. I didn't think of what would happen afterwards...d'oh.
I bought another huge bottle a couple of months(?) ago.
I took more than the recommended dose the other day.
Now I'm researching about overdoses again...just like before I ODed.
I afraid I might do it again...
It's almost been a year since I did it. What if I do it again?
I don't want to throw away my bottle of aspirin...
Maybe I'm playing a game with my life...
(Good thing I didn't choose Tylenol for this)
Deneb
Posted by Deneb on January 3, 2006, at 4:25:08
In reply to Re: Some people are in real danger, posted by Deneb on January 3, 2006, at 0:29:54
I'm not going to do it, yep, I'm do going to OD again cuz I don't like feeling sick and I don't want to waste precious resources.
I don't know why I kind of sort of even want to do it again. I obviously don't want to die. Maybe I just want the attention it brings. I think this is like some sort of game or something...
I'll be the only one playing the game and no one will "get" it. Playing games...playing games.
My life is boring so I want another adventure in the hospital??? I need to find better ways to find excitement...geez.
I just hate how I feel like it is so easy for me to OD again. I can just imagine it. It's so easy. I could be just feeling fine and be like, hmmm...I think I'll just take x pills right now...wait a while and take x more, wait, and again and again. Hmmm...I think I took a little too much...
Then the doctors will ask me why I did it and then I'll be like, "Hmmm...don't know, thought it might be interesting...I just thought it might be fun to try to have a seizure today..."
OMGosh, I'm not a normal person. I think maybe I think I'm some character in a novel or something and that my life needs some excitement.
Posted by Larry Hoover on January 3, 2006, at 10:24:36
In reply to Re: Some people are in real danger, posted by Deneb on January 3, 2006, at 4:25:08
> I afraid I might do it again...
> Maybe I'm playing a game with my life...
> Maybe I just want the attention it brings. I think this is like some sort of game or something...> I'll be the only one playing the game and no one will "get" it.
What happened between those two posts to make the fear go away?
I've been telling you for weeks you want the attention, and that nobody will have any idea why you are doing this. They will only know that you are doing this. Why won't even matter.
And you have a straight face, when you post to the main board, asking for proof about the effects of Risperdal. When you won't keep a journal. And when the dose that works for you is as little as one sixteenth (8.3%) of that used for schizophrenia. And this bizarre and feelingless state just goes away, when you do use it.
Look at your subject line.
You are in real danger.
You talk about "executing (a) plan".
"I didn't think of what would happen afterwards...doh."
Posted by Deneb on January 3, 2006, at 17:08:19
In reply to Re: Some people are in real danger » Deneb, posted by Larry Hoover on January 3, 2006, at 10:24:36
OK, OK Larry
I'll go get some help already.
I was going to call my pdoc today, but I slept until 5:30 pm.
Posted by Phillipa on January 3, 2006, at 17:32:14
In reply to Re: Some people are in real danger » Larry Hoover, posted by Deneb on January 3, 2006, at 17:08:19
Deneb what time did you go to bed? Fondly, Phillipa
This is the end of the thread.
Psycho-Babble Social | Extras | FAQ
Dr. Bob is Robert Hsiung, MD,
bob@dr-bob.org
Script revised: February 4, 2008
URL: http://www.dr-bob.org/cgi-bin/pb/mget.pl
Copyright 2006-17 Robert Hsiung.
Owned and operated by Dr. Bob LLC and not the University of Chicago.