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Posted by jonhed on August 15, 2016, at 10:48:18
I'm in a constant haze after my relapse. I can't think straight, can't hold a conversation, can barely function in my daily life.
I feel completely out of it and i get in so much conflicts over things cause i misunderstand things all the time.
I can't do this anymore, i'm scared.
And as you who knows me you know that i'm intolerant to anti-psychotics.
I got 25mg of olanzapine when i was in psych ward, it was that or an injection by force, so i chose olanzapine, and i got really bad on it for 3-4 days. real real bad.
I'm scared... i don't know what to do.
Posted by jonhed on August 15, 2016, at 10:56:12
In reply to My brain does not work,, posted by jonhed on August 15, 2016, at 10:48:18
I can describe it as if i am numb, my whole body is so numb that i think for real that i can stick a needle in my fot without feel it.
I don't know if that's the case but i don't feel nothing.
Completely numb.What can this be?
I can't even write good english anymore, what is happening to me?
Posted by Tabitha on August 15, 2016, at 12:19:34
In reply to My brain does not work,, posted by jonhed on August 15, 2016, at 10:48:18
Oh no, I'm sorry you're feeling so bad. It helps me a little to just do something normal like wash dishes, take a walk, watch a movie. Do any of those things help you? Or can you think of times where you felt like this, but it eventually passed? That might help create a feeling of hope.
And for what it's worth, your English seems fine right now.
Posted by lil jimi on August 15, 2016, at 16:08:21
In reply to Re: My brain does not work,, posted by jonhed on August 15, 2016, at 10:56:12
Hello, Mr. Jonhed,
I'll echo Ms.Tabitha's concern and endorse her recommendation:
Do normal things to get to feeling normal. This is reasonable and studies have shown it to be effective. Intuitively I'd call this "Renormalization" and that might be an excepted term. (I'm lifting it from theoretical physics, But that is Not important.)Have you gotten back to feeling more normal yet?
I know close-to-zero about Olanzapine. No, I do know zero about it.
Do you have support? Family, friends, acquaintances, neighbors, past support professionals, psych ward folks?
Your brain manages to get you here and you are making complete sentences. But I understand you are experiencing your senses are not functioning properly:: your sense of touch not providing feedback which you feel as numbness.
Has your numb feeling receded since trying Renormalization?
Please make sure you are safe. If you are not sure you are safe, make sure you can get support and that they know your situation. Maybe make a list of things that can contribute to keeping you safe? And have a list of your support options maybe with their hours of availability?
Take care
Posted by baseball55 on August 15, 2016, at 18:54:38
In reply to Re: My brain does not work,, posted by jonhed on August 15, 2016, at 10:56:12
You are experiencing meth withdrawal. Maybe you should do this at a detox or rehab. Psych meds may not be the answer.
Posted by jonhed on August 16, 2016, at 5:28:28
In reply to Re: My brain does not work, » jonhed, posted by lil jimi on August 15, 2016, at 16:08:21
Oh you are so nice to me that i want to cry.
I woke up this morning feeling a little bit more normal and yes i took your advice to do normal things and started to work and cook food and so on, things i'm confident in and it has helped tremendously.
And to baseballs post: Yes, this is meth withdrawal but i had forgotten how it felt after 15 month sober.
It is a hellish drug and i got to point one the first day i injected it, it was like being back to where i was 2 years ago just in 20 minutes after the initial rush was over and i started to searching my department for stuff and ended up in a paranoid psychosis, a clinical psychosis that is, and it's just horrible that i relapsed, but i am going to focus on the 15 month i had sober and not the 6 days on meth.I was doing it wrong to, you where right that i should have done it in a rehab, but i did it at home with my doctors approval, and that turned out to be a bad idea.
I was on 6mg clonazepam and tapered out to 2mg in 10 days. But i'm proud of myself that i managed to get through it without continuing the amphetamines.Now i'm 2 weeks sober and i have learned my lesson, i hope.
Thanks for all your support, this has been hell.
I cut myself so bad that i still have bandage on my left arm, i was so mortified by myself.And the tip to Renormalization was the best i have ever heard.
Just sitting in my department would have left me with no other option than lighting up again, so thanks everyone.
I think the worst part is over now, the things i have left is the nightmares and sequences of memories that comes back throughout the day. That is not fun either.Love / J
Posted by baseball55 on August 16, 2016, at 20:23:18
In reply to Re: My brain does not work,, posted by jonhed on August 16, 2016, at 5:28:28
Good luck to you. A day at a time.> Oh you are so nice to me that i want to cry.
>
> I woke up this morning feeling a little bit more normal and yes i took your advice to do normal things and started to work and cook food and so on, things i'm confident in and it has helped tremendously.
>
> And to baseballs post: Yes, this is meth withdrawal but i had forgotten how it felt after 15 month sober.
> It is a hellish drug and i got to point one the first day i injected it, it was like being back to where i was 2 years ago just in 20 minutes after the initial rush was over and i started to searching my department for stuff and ended up in a paranoid psychosis, a clinical psychosis that is, and it's just horrible that i relapsed, but i am going to focus on the 15 month i had sober and not the 6 days on meth.
>
> I was doing it wrong to, you where right that i should have done it in a rehab, but i did it at home with my doctors approval, and that turned out to be a bad idea.
> I was on 6mg clonazepam and tapered out to 2mg in 10 days. But i'm proud of myself that i managed to get through it without continuing the amphetamines.
>
> Now i'm 2 weeks sober and i have learned my lesson, i hope.
>
> Thanks for all your support, this has been hell.
> I cut myself so bad that i still have bandage on my left arm, i was so mortified by myself.
>
> And the tip to Renormalization was the best i have ever heard.
> Just sitting in my department would have left me with no other option than lighting up again, so thanks everyone.
> I think the worst part is over now, the things i have left is the nightmares and sequences of memories that comes back throughout the day. That is not fun either.
>
> Love / J
Posted by lil jimi on August 19, 2016, at 10:58:11
In reply to Re: My brain does not work,, posted by jonhed on August 16, 2016, at 5:28:28
Hope 'Renormalization', can be another tool in your support system and help make your path clearer to sobriety. Truly, one day at a time, friend.
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