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Posted by finelinebob on May 10, 2004, at 11:48:12
Noa researching all my former pseudos (and thank you very much!! for reminding me I was NOT "Bobb"! =^) got me misty about "the old days" ... hey! We are culturally bound to automatically get "misty" about "the old days", whether they were good or not! Anyway, I decided to go see for myself.
Wow.
I guess if I ever need reminding that things have changed for me, all I need to do is reread those 1999 posts again (so tonight we're going to Babble like its nineteen ninety-nine! ... ?!). Have you ever been tempted to reread your posts from back then? Did you just go do it right now? Any reactions?
Just curious...
flbps. big Thank You! to Dr. Bob for keeping those posts available!
Posted by Racer on May 10, 2004, at 16:22:21
In reply to Strolling down memory lane..., posted by finelinebob on May 10, 2004, at 11:48:12
It reminded me of what I went through in my last major depressive episode, with a really terrible doctor. At first, it felt as though only the names had changed, that nothing would ever go right for me, that I could never find the help I need. You know, just confirmed my worst fears. I was almost suicidal -- well, OK, I was suicidal, but that was true before reading the posts.
Then I remembered that, in between, something had worked well enough that I could meet a man who felt like my twin, form a relationship, move to a new place, find several jobs -- some of which I kept for some time, all but one of which I left voluntarily -- start working on actually living. Something changed, and that same something might change again. Sure, I've been here before, but maybe I can get back there again.
So, it's definitely an experience. Mixed, in some ways, but overall positive for me.
It is strange, though, isn't it?
Posted by finelinebob on May 11, 2004, at 0:43:49
In reply to I did a while ago..., posted by Racer on May 10, 2004, at 16:22:21
> It is strange, though, isn't it?
For me, it was kinda like seeing how I've been going round and round, but the view changes all the same.
Hmm ... I reread that and it sounds like I think I haven't been making any progress ... quite the opposite, actually.
Posted by allisonm on May 11, 2004, at 19:42:50
In reply to Strolling down memory lane..., posted by finelinebob on May 10, 2004, at 11:48:12
1999 seems so long ago. Looking back, that June I was only on my 4th AD trial and thinking up really good suicide plans. Time sure flies when you're having..... uh, unipolar depression...
I was saying back then that even while thinking up suicide plans, things were a lot better than they were the year before. I have to admit now that things are worlds better than they were then. Damn. I guess I can't complain or feel sorry for myself anymore, eh?
;-)
Posted by finelinebob on May 11, 2004, at 22:58:37
In reply to Re: Strolling down memory lane... » finelinebob, posted by allisonm on May 11, 2004, at 19:42:50
> I was saying back then that even while thinking up suicide plans, things were a lot better than they were the year before. I have to admit now that things are worlds better than they were then. Damn. I guess I can't complain or feel sorry for myself anymore, eh?
You could move to NYC. It's every New Yorker's God-given right to complain ... whatever the reason!
geez, about the unipolar depression stuff ... me, too. I think that gives us the right to complain no matter what. I mean, did you sneak peeks at that thread about "What is it like to be bipolar?" IT'S NOT FAIR!! I mean, my first time ever on an AD was zoloft. I was one of the very few to have a manic episode triggered by it. For the only time in my life, I really KNEW what it was to be happy!
Well, okay, maybe a little MORE than just happy.
But the way I see it is this: UNIPOLAR depression means that not only do we have bad genes, we have the **wrong** bad genes! grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr
flb
Posted by allisonm on May 12, 2004, at 20:06:58
In reply to Re: Strolling down memory lane..., posted by finelinebob on May 11, 2004, at 22:58:37
Well, I do live in upstate NY. Does that still give me permission to complain? Our weather is a whole lot worse than those weather wusses get in the big apple. We were close to 200 inches of snow this last season...
I know bipolar technically is hard to deal with and I would not want it, but this unipolar crap does get boring after awhile. It would nice to have a manic episode once in awhile. Otherwise, I feel like Eeyore all the damn long day ... and night.
Posted by noa on May 12, 2004, at 20:34:16
In reply to Re: Strolling down memory lane... » finelinebob, posted by allisonm on May 12, 2004, at 20:06:58
Yes, it's interesting to read old posts. When I read some of your old ones, Bob (not DR.), I saw things I had forgotten you had gone through, like the struggle with trying to resolve a complaint related to ADA stuff. Wow. And then, you reinvented your career quite nicely. And now, your are reinventing it again. YOu are quite resilient, really.
I'm glad 99 feels like a long time ago already. It is giving me some distance from a very hard time in my life.
Posted by noa on May 12, 2004, at 20:42:11
In reply to I did a while ago..., posted by Racer on May 10, 2004, at 16:22:21
>Something changed, and that same something might change again. Sure, I've been here before, but maybe I can get back there again.
Wow. THis is amazing to see. May I save it and bring it back to remind you of it if needed?
Take care, Racer.
BTW, I'm having computer probs that make it hard to get online. See my post to SLS.
Take care.
Posted by finelinebob on May 12, 2004, at 21:53:42
In reply to Re: Strolling down memory lane... » finelinebob, posted by allisonm on May 12, 2004, at 20:06:58
> Well, I do live in upstate NY. Does that still give me permission to complain? Our weather is a whole lot worse than those weather wusses get in the big apple....
Yes, it does -- but only about all those downstate wusses and carpetbaggers ;^)
Posted by finelinebob on May 12, 2004, at 22:05:19
In reply to Re: Strolling down memory lane..., posted by noa on May 12, 2004, at 20:34:16
> ... I saw things I had forgotten you had gone through, like the struggle with trying to resolve a complaint related to ADA stuff. Wow....
The EEOC was located in 7 World Trade. It collapsed much later that evening, after sustaining damage from 1 World Trade's collapse. Given that everyone had been safely evacuated for hours from 7, I can't say I'm sorry that particular office was reduced to dust. I know the neighborhood is glad its gone, too ... when the reconstruction design contest came up, people in TriBeCa were screaming about just how bad 7 made life for them.
Problem was, 7 World Trade had a HUGE fuel oil storage facility underneath it. It burned for weeks, and nobody really knows just how toxic the air got in Lower Manhattan because of it. Plus, those fumes got dragged out for miles throughout the subway system.
flb
Well, yeah, someone probably DOES know ... the EPA was there. Whoever it is, they ain't telling the rest of us, tho.
Posted by NikkiT2 on May 13, 2004, at 7:03:08
In reply to Re: Strolling down memory lane..., posted by finelinebob on May 12, 2004, at 22:05:19
The oil burning is *really* interesting..
the friend I mentioned has developed very severe asthma since 9/11.. hmmm...
Re; wandering down memory lane...
I love doing it.. looking back to before I was married!! When I was Nikki, no T cos I wasn't a T yet..
Oh yeah.. Anyone who can get to London in November I'm throwing me a borthday party *giggles* I refuse to let 30 go by sat inside sulking!!!
Nikki x
Posted by afatchic on May 21, 2004, at 12:18:56
In reply to Strolling down memory lane..., posted by finelinebob on May 10, 2004, at 11:48:12
I did a google search for my screen name yesterday and cme up with hundreds of PsychoBabble hits. It was very interesting. It felt good to read the compassionate posts I sent to others. I sounded like such a nice person.
The truly hillarious part was reading my posts about taking Serzone years ago. I remembered that I took Serzone but could never remember why I quit taking it. I discovered from my old posts that I quit because it caused severe memory problems! That makes sense.
It was a fun stroll down the lane.
afatchic
> Noa researching all my former pseudos (and thank you very much!! for reminding me I was NOT "Bobb"! =^) got me misty about "the old days" ... hey! We are culturally bound to automatically get "misty" about "the old days", whether they were good or not! Anyway, I decided to go see for myself.
>
> Wow.
>
> I guess if I ever need reminding that things have changed for me, all I need to do is reread those 1999 posts again (so tonight we're going to Babble like its nineteen ninety-nine! ... ?!). Have you ever been tempted to reread your posts from back then? Did you just go do it right now? Any reactions?
>
> Just curious...
> flb
>
> ps. big Thank You! to Dr. Bob for keeping those posts available!
Posted by finelinebob on May 21, 2004, at 12:42:23
In reply to Re: Strolling down memory lane..., posted by afatchic on May 21, 2004, at 12:18:56
> It felt good to read the compassionate posts I sent to others. I sounded like such a nice person.
That's because you are! The best thing about it, tho, is that YOU are the one confirming it. We all can get so down on ourselves and it can be so hard to accept the good that others say we do -- but you and I and all of us have such great self-generated evidence of it here in Babbleland.
Which is another reason why Babble in general and all those old saved threads in particular is such a godsend. Thanks, Dr. Bob!!
> The truly hillarious part was reading my posts about taking Serzone years ago. I remembered that I took Serzone but could never remember why I quit taking it. I discovered from my old posts that I quit because it caused severe memory problems! That makes sense.
Oh ... my ... gahhhuuuud! I could not BELIEVE what I wrote about some of the meds I was on back then! I first joined Babble about 2 years into a 2.5 year odyssey of finding the best med fit for me. I remembered that lithium wasn't good -- I didn't quite recall how AWFUL it was.flb
Posted by Dr. Bob on May 22, 2004, at 0:05:00
In reply to Re: Strolling down memory lane... (Hey Dr. B!), posted by finelinebob on May 21, 2004, at 12:42:23
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