Posted by sonic_gb on December 6, 2007, at 11:18:43 [reposted on December 15, 2007, at 3:04:22 | original URL]
In reply to Re: Anyone lost their job because of depression? » clubfitter, posted by ClearSkies on December 6, 2007, at 10:28:42
> > I feel like I am about to. Its' so noticeable and people ask me whats wrong everyday. I'm a whole different person since this most recent episode. Its' got me scared to death.
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> I took personal leave once for depression, then came back to work and found that I wasn't ready for it at all. I decided to quit before I was asked to leave. That was almost 3 years ago, and I'm just now considering that I might be ready to go back to work - to be able to regain health care benefits. What an irony.
> At the time that I left work, my pdoc did not think that I needed to do it. She and I disagreed on almost all aspects of my illness and treatment. She really wanted me to be a lot tougher and thicker skinned on all fronts, and discounted my therapist's assessment of PTSD. This probably hurt me as much as anything.
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> Eventually I found another pdoc, and have had my diagnosis updated, medication changed appropriately, and my life has started to turn around. I don't think I could have done any of this and held a job - no, scratch that, I KNOW I could not have held a job and gone through the last couple of years. I had to put my mental health before everything else in order to start to recover.
> ClearSkies
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>As I'm being hospitalized for a week today or tomorrow, I'm forced to take time off work. My new psychiatrist encouraged me to be honest and wanted to write a letter detailing the situation. I declined because I think it would be the end of my career. I'm taking emergency vacation time instead and saying that there is a personal emergency. I think people know that there's something wrong with me, but it hasn't been discussed. It's not a fun situation, and I have found it extremely difficult to hold myself together at work. I generally have to drive a few blocks away at lunch, and then at the end of the day, and break down for a long while before I can pull myself back together again. I think this hospitalization is badly needed.
Sonic
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