Posted by califcamper on June 19, 2008, at 16:49:29
It seems like my mind goes up and down chemically almost daily. Now Im down. I look at old emails I sent to people and I was in a completely different state of mind. I know this all sounds like it just is simple but I have to tell anyone that cares, I just dont understand anymore. Even when I feel a little decent, its never enough, to really make a difference. Im NEVER just happy. Its all a head trick. Damn, Im sorry, I am just losing it and have nowhere to go. Im 42, I thought it would be different by now. Just one example of trying to get help, the hour at a therapist just isnt enough to change my life. Im scared and there is no one to hold me in my life. Ive been running my entire life, it finally caught me.
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thread:835506
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