Posted by dexascream on July 6, 2007, at 20:17:43
I was about 23 that Friday night when i went to my gps and he said,Im going to put yoou on Dexedrine......whats that i thought,no warning,advice-nothing,and off into the night i go with a monthly script for about 400 dexamphetamine pills.I was well addicted by the time i learnt what i had been using.I thought they were anti-depressants,as i got them in a big white box,no leaflet and no dr. advice,so thats how my life started to dwindle away.....Getting on for eleven years later,I am addicted to amphetamine so bad.Yes no 1 to keep of the bad withdrawl,but also i cant go anywhere,do anything,talk to anyone,use the phone without speed running through me.At the moment im prescribed daily amisulpride 400 mg,valium 40mg,dexedrine 100mg,Efexor xl (poison)225 mg,codine phosphate 90 mg,ventolin,becatide,lororotadine,becatide,sleeping pills plus two/three grams of street speed base.I dont have much money,i hate dealers.This wanker has been ripping me off for 10 years as he knows how much i need it.200 plus pounds a week for ten years,and he only sells in g,s Bastard greedy fk.sorry.I just hate there greed and he says im your mate,if you need anything let me know,yea a mate,enough to suck me dry weekly so i have no money to eat,the day i even get paid,fluids,go anywhere,nothing.a few smokes.AHHHH THIS HAS TO STOP WITH THEM BASTARDS MAYBE ILL CALL THE POLICE....ENOUGH IS ENOUGH.From 30 mins waking up to 45 mins i have to have my dexies which i take all in one go,most days they dont open my eyes.In the afternoon i try and cut the base to make it last.2 1/8..s.That usually lasts me till about 1/2 am.I hate sleep,i dont know why.I withdraw so bad from street,not really dex,i dont know why,first i get a panic attack,then start shaking,every nerve ending almost starts to scream,i start to see things,hear things that aint there,become really anxious,terrified sometimes.Other times i just casually flow through life,not doing much,as i hardly ever go out,and here in Manchester with no mates,and no family,well my mum is dying with heart failure,im the last of the clan,so being alone on earth soon-scary.The cdt/dr,s/psyciatrists are all a waste of time and space.At the cdt and no im not racist but both dr,s are from Africa,i cant understand a word they say except......no,no....dexeeeeedriiine.....fk off.At least one english should be there.Manchester is bad now for addicts/dia.And now eleven years on i get chest pains like cramp,i fall to the floor in agony.Then i become dizzy 50 x a day and almost pass out.My stomach dosnt know weather its coming or wanting to going...lol,mind you same as my mind and whole body.I get sick,yet am a good build,a big bloke.Yet so unhappy.In 88 i detoxed cold turkey in clouds rehab and i was so ill for seven weeks.I said i would die than go through that again and i meant it...Maybe it would be so easier to take em all and sleeep. yET LIFE CAN BE GOOD.i Once lived in nyc,LAvegas,Isreal all over,Im lucky to get to local shops now.I got a golden retriever he keeps me going i luv him.ok people any words off wisdom go ahead im all speed ears......cheers for listening Steve manc.....
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