Posted by Philip N. on September 29, 2006, at 9:52:02
In reply to Re: Withdrawal from long term antidepressants, posted by musky on September 27, 2006, at 23:19:00
Hi Musky.
I hear exactly what you are saying. The problem I've encountered is that in this fight I have lost ground. I'm now concerned about the effects this is having on my mental and physiacl well being. The is alot of proof that untreated Depression/Anxiety can extract a heavy toll on us up to and including killing us.
Right now I think I'm having a hard time coming to an acceptance that I may not be one of those who has an episodic form of this stuff that you just kick *ss on and move on. I have never in my life been in this shape and many "experts" are saying that enough time has passed for it to be a discontinuation from meds. Even though I don't have a true opinion on that I know that at my current rate I won't last to make 2 years to find out.
I'm at that point of considering the lesser of the 2: Waste away untreated or find some remission and rejoin my family so I can still be there for them. What is the ideal situation? Many including myself would say to be med free but that may bring with it some consequences that are worse than being on the stuff. I just celebrated my 30 year wedding anniversary by retreating to my bed to see if I could go to sleep.
I don't smoke or drink alcohol (8 years sobriety) or life a wild life. I try to eat right and look at alternatives and such but at the same time the grip this thing has on me is becoming too paralytic. I don't want to lose it all trying to reach a plateau that for now is set too high. Maybe by relenting to medication I can rejoin my own life. Does any of this make sense?
Thanks....let me know
poster:Philip N.
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