Posted by Oh_Joy on August 1, 2006, at 6:26:53
In reply to Re: Effexor hell!, posted by noelle on August 1, 2006, at 0:59:26
Yup, quit everything, just like that!
I've been diagnosed MDD/ADD. I've struggled with depression most of my life. The ADD/(HD) I just lived with, sort of. Spent some time in a hospital for suicidal stuff a long time ago. I had always been very resistant to meds, for a lot of reasons, not the least of which being my current struggle. So, I have never known how I would react to meds. At first it seemed that things got better, the moods stabilized, the thoughts began to congeal, sleep has always been a struggle. But recently, last 2-3 weeks, things seemed to be going backwards. Last week I really lost it and ended up on an all night walk, literally, I walked like ALL night. Ended up in a small town about 15 miles from home and had to call my wife to come get me, I hurt my left ankle some how. Anyway, during my walk I just decided I was done with meds, can't do it any more, for me they are Mr. Yuck. Where do I go from here? Don't know, one day at a time I guess. Thanks for the reply, and the sympathy... empathy? I guess the one thing this forum has done for me is show me I'm not alone, cause right now I feel pretty much alone. You know, guys aren't supposed to go through this stuff or at least not admit to it, so I really haven't much of a support base. My lovely wife of 22+ years and my 3 beautiful daughters are my life line. Not too fair to them, I suppose, but my experience has been most folks don't want to know that you have mental problems. Especially in my kind of work etc...
Sorry, for the novel. I guess I'll just hang in there.
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