Posted by willyee on July 5, 2006, at 7:57:39 [reposted on July 5, 2006, at 22:39:28 | original URL]
In reply to Withdrawl HELL from Effexor, posted by tracyunverzagt on July 4, 2006, at 21:57:24
> I am four days effexor free. I weaned myself off, and am in pure hell.
> Can ANYONE tell me how long this might last?
> I can't think, I can't feel, my eyes are making noise when they move, I have diarhea, cramps, physical pain everywhere. I can't sleep, but I am so completely exhausted. I alternate between sobbing,laughing, screaming,fearing....I lose my train of thought, have muddled brains, my body jerks and spasms. My normally spotless house resembles a war torn zone, my family hasn't had a decently prepared meal... I don't want to leave my house, am completely dizzy and disoriented. I crave sugar and salt, am afraid of everything, suspicious of everyone, move like a turtle on acid, amd feel like I died and got ran over by a train two or three times for good measure.
> Please, someone tell me this will not kill me, and that there is a light at the end of the tunnel..my husband is preparing the noose as I write..
Effexor was the first drug i was ever on,including recreational,of course at that time,age 19,now 27.....i did not believe i was on a drug rather safe medicine.Anyway after feeling like a sock found under a bed years later,i finaly choose to get off effexor,after numerous numerous pleas in the form of phone messages to my p-doc he finaly answered and simply said.........ok stop it.
Back then ssris were deemed totaly safe with no withdrawal syndromes,including effexor which isnt exactly a ssri.
ANyway the following weeks were a true living night mare,i remeber a few things,one pacing a friends room in a circle not knowing why,luckly she was a great girl,and lol paced with me,prob should have appreciated her more now in hindsight.Second i remeber just grabbing a stack of magazines and ripping the pages out,as i did not no how to release this unexplainable energy.Extreme agitation.
I remeber feeling my mind turn to a blank grey page as i sat with a friend in a car one day as she took me to a water front to try and help,i saw no beach,no night sky,just blank.
I remeber going to a deserted school track and running on a saturday morning.
And i remeber finaly a day i came home,no one was home and i just felt nothing,i wont comment on the exact actions i almost took but im sure u get the idea,this is not something i ever think of,im just not that person,but again i wasnt me i was a grey deadenad version.....i remeber what stopped me was my beautiful BOXER sitting there staring at me,my dog for 11 years then i felt a shiver of me,and i dropped and balled all over her,poor dog looked at me like i was insance which i was at the time,she was soaked with my tears.
The story has a happy ending,it did subside obviously,although i have my suscpinsions on long term effects this one drug had of all the many i took,but the nightmare of direct withdrawal did subside,and a even higher plus is it do so with me not having the faintest clue about any drugs,..W/D resources etc,things u have at ur disposal as we speak.
So hopefully this is some glimmer,i remeber it took me approx 3 weeks to feel my self again,or what would be myself.Again this is cold turkey,no support of experianced people,no idea of what was even happening,so hopefully urs can be faster.
Minor things i remeberd doiing that i can just pass along were........
Found something i can focus my mind on,that would in a way force it,which was a video game.......sound silly yess.but i dont normaly play video games,but getting deep into one gave my brain somewhat of a focus other than the agony.
Tell close people of course,let them know constantly that this is gonna pass but ur going through a period,and ask for there support so some responsabilites might be lifted temporarly.
Sometimes dont fight it,go in a room by urself and ride it out,if u feel like pacing,put on music and do it,clean if u feel u need a day in bed,do so,and try in small increments to get up,but dont push,its not will power here,ur up aganist more than u can over will.Remeber u know at least one person who rode it out,a 19 year old totaly clueless kid,with many tears and fear i rode it,and it DID subside,i only wish i had klonopin then which i had not,i wasnt introduced to benzos at this point in the game.
Well remebering what it was,i wish u luck,and someone on here might smirck now.....but i will put u in my prayers.
poster:willyee
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