Posted by DizzyNikki2 on August 13, 2005, at 16:39:44
In reply to Thank you so much D. Nikki, posted by AmandaEffexorScks on August 13, 2005, at 1:03:08
Hey Amanda,
Glad to hear about your progress! I am hanging in here. WOW though, I have been hit lately harder at night with the brain zaps. Sounds like you have been getting your share too. I had plans to go out last night, first time in a week, with a best girlfriend of mine but I was just too dizzy and exhausted. WE made it through dinner and ended up catching a movie. Well better than nothing, it was an evening of laughing so that is always a cure.
Now this is the interesting part, you may not believe this but I have no problems telling you some info about me. and... this is not made up...I live in Florida, just moved back home from up North, My real name is Amanda, Nikki is the nickname and I go by that occassionally but more so Amanda, My birthday is in exactly one week, I will be 25. Yeah!! I get a break on car insurance, see always a positive! I read your post and thought omg that is almost like reading my bio. Coincidence or what?
I changed my screenname lately due to some confusion that I over-reacted too. You can read it in Admin if you want too. I posted in one of my upset moods and anything slightly negative to me is 10 times worse right now while I am getting my head cleared up.
Keeping busy has really been a good avenue for me. When I am occupied I am good.
All in all though, things have been looking good. Luckily for you, you have some awesome kids. You'll get another job. ..but I would take it easy for a bit if you can. I am transitioning careers so I have just been doing training and can afford to take a slight break, but I start full time next Monday. What a great birthday gift, seriously. I am ready to go back to work. You can do it, be strong!
Oh and getting on effexor, my GP started me on Lexapro because lightly put I was homesick, I pursued a career miles away from friends or family, alone, and I hung in there for about 2 years. (but the kicker is I was engaged to be married, and I left my fiance behind) I didn't expect him to wait for me, of course he didn't, and when I found out my faithfulness wasn't reciprocated. It (sh prefixx) hit the fan. I started the whole boozing thing and ended up in rehab for 2 weeks. Thats when they slapped on the whole bi-polar title. Reflecting back on that, thats kind of unfair. Isn't everyone bi-polar nowdays? I then got started on the effexor, lithium, depakote, nuerontin, and trazadone. I should have known how bad effexor was when I couldn't even take it without throwing up for the first two weeks. It was like having morning sickness (not sure though no kids)every time I tried to take it. My entire depression and moods circled around my ex-fiance. I then got involved with someone after rehab who took me for all of my hard earned money and took off to another state. I kind of walked into that one though and have learned to chalk that up to a bad experience and move on. I am kicking this thing with no current income and a haunting past but damn I have some good stories now and advice for other people. I guess its true every mistake is an opportunity to learn something new.
As far as my daily herbals and vitamins, I have found a lot of good in the St John 's Wort. I take about three a day. I picked up the fish oil yesterday just to try that out. I have snuck in a depakote here and there but don't think that does anything but make me more tired. I occasionally take Bonine for Vertigo, but that really doesn't do it either. Wouldn't it be nice to formulate a no-brain zap herbal remedy. I'd be all over that! I lost my cobra, couldn't pay it so going to a DR is not an option. It wasn't good for much anyway cause the DR's here are out of network and i could only go to the ER.
I really can't wait to come to the day when I can wake up and not take a single pill. That is motivation for me.
Hang in there A!!!It gets better and sounds like it is getting better for you and me both. I enjoyed reading your post and appreciate your concern and support. and... happy early Birthday to you, maybe for both of our birthdays we will be withdrawal free. That will be the ultimate gift.Talk to you soon,
DizzyNikki
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