Posted by holymama on June 16, 2005, at 23:16:07
I am up to 6 medications. Plus I've been drinking alcohol and smoking pot daily and drinking a lot of coffee. I'm a big drugged up mess. I'm not always like this -- I go through periods of 'sobriety' and healthy living, but 2 weeks ago I had a mental crisis, went from suicide watch to manic in 3 days flat. It's crazy. I started drinking and smoking pot like a fiend, to calm myself down, I think.
I need to get off these meds, maybe down to just lithium. I also need to stop this horrible drinking and smoking. It's so bad for my health, for my stability. Even though I can't call myself an 'alcoholic'. I don't drink much, but a few drinks gives me a hangover while I'm on all of theses meds.
I'm thinking of going into the hospital to get off everything. I could get cleaned up and come out drug free. I realize I can't just go in and ask them to keep me and get me off my meds, but if I start lowering my meds (with docotr's approval), I expect I'll get feeling suicidal at some point, because it happens frequently with me. I'm very sensitive to changes. I'm running the idea by my pdoc and also a doctor at the hospital I've been at in the past. If he o.k.s the idea, I would like to do it. I can't stand the idea of doing a 6 month gradual withdrawel of meds, one by one. That sounds so much more painful.
poster:holymama
thread:514115
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