Posted by tepi on February 14, 2010, at 4:32:39 [reposted on February 26, 2010, at 1:40:26 | original URL]
Im driking , oh yes Im so damn drinking.
Everybody its outside , everybody its enjoying this day
I needed to calm down , so I started drinking alone , I started to send some emails to old friends telling that I miss them so much . I told mom I was ok that I needed to miss problems for a while . Thank god I still have mom . I wish I could enjoy her more . Its painful to see how she suffers because of me . Im trying to imaging the way she is feeling now but I cant and I never could.
Im just sitting here in front of the pc trying to explain what I feel but I cant. Im thinking that there may be people in worse conditions than me, not only with mental illness but with many other issues ,at the end it is the same for everybody
"suffering"
Im not suppose to post this and I know there may be a section to post this and that Im going to be so redirecting,
why ? because I have been on this site for more than 10 years
and why im so worried about what anybody can think about this ?
I suck on this speach things but what the hell
I wanted to post anything
Dont give up and may god help all of us
poster:tepi
thread:937913
URL: http://www.dr-bob.org/babble/subs/20091027/msgs/937913.html