Posted by Lou Pilder on October 26, 2009, at 16:59:05
In reply to suicide, posted by Impermanence on October 26, 2009, at 3:22:23
> I'm going to hang myself today. I'm going tp use my beautiful fogs lead on the rafters in our garage.
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> This will be my fifth attempt, my last attempt was seven years ago when I botched up cutting my arteries and my poor mother found me unconscious in a bathtub full of blood.
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> Funny thing is life is going very well for me right now, but I just can't shake my boredom and tiredness of it all.
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> I can't stop drinking, I can't sleep, I don't leave my house any more, I can't stop smoking weed even though I'm developing what could be described as psychosis.
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> I suffer from avoidance personality disorder, a hyper awareness and hyper sensitivity to even the slightest criticism.
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> I feel ridiculed and humiliated every time I go out and for no apparent reason.
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> I've stockpiled diazepam and zopiclone to numb the fear.
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> I'm so tired of being afraid.
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> I've had enough.
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> I just wanted to communicate this with somebody before my parents leave for work.
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> I just felt the need for human contact from people who understand mental torment before I go through with this.
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> Thank you for listening.Impermanence,
You wrote,[...contact from people who...].
Well, I am unsure as to if you just want contact or if you are wanting dialog with,[...people who...] or somwething else.
I would like to have dialog with you here and present to you something that perhaps is unbeknownst to you.
Lou
poster:Lou Pilder
thread:922543
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