Posted by llrrrpp on June 18, 2006, at 9:32:24
In reply to Re: A healthy, therapeutic dose of fukitol, posted by KramericaIndustries on June 18, 2006, at 3:10:19
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> Some thoughts...
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> > And the best is yet to come. Nitrous Oxide NO!
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> The summer after I graduated from high school before going off for my first attempt at college (now in my 3rd attempt with only 3 semesters left), this dude I worked with at a restaurant also had a job at this company that supplied various gases (cryogenics supply?) to welders and other companies. Anyways the guy had access to big asz tanks of nitrous. OMG!! We would suck on those tanks for hours. Talk about loosin some brain cells...While one person was hitting it, there would need to be others around him/her so she wouldn't fall over and get knocked in the noggin with the tank. Those were some crazy sessions. Ah to be young white trash in arizona in the summer...okay- never did NO to that extent. just a hit or two off the whipping cream can.
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> It sounded like you don't drink too much these days, so why didn't you just enjoy it, instead of getting all negative?? Obviously there are deeper issues with the cutting and all, but take it easy girl, being alone ain't so bad. Life could be a lot worse than just dealing with the demons in our heads. Look at Beethoven. He was the greatest composer in the world during his life, and he went fcking deaf...DEAF!!! Yet the dude overcame suicidal ideation and kept composing. He may not have been happy, but he kept on truckin'.
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I do enjjoy it at first, but then the euphoria wears off and leaves neagtivity in its wake.by the way- Beethoven- not happy. Perhaps a better analogy would be Rober Schumann. He had a devastating depression. His wife, Clara had to take up performing and composing to support the family while her husband was incapacitated. Robert threw himself into the Rhine, but was fished out. Clara apparently destroyed some of his scores because she detected madness, and didn't want that to be part of Schumann's legacy.
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> BTW maybe different meds could be a consideration...Just a thought. Hope all is well.
>yeah, I just saw pdoc a few days ago. we upped cymbalta from 60-90 mg, to try to get better response. I'm trying to ride out some pretty severe depression right now. (see my lovely crisis on "Social") trying to hang in there, see if things work out. I also see T weekly. Thanks for your concern & input. I appreciate it
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