Posted by teek30 on August 1, 2005, at 20:32:08 [reposted on August 3, 2005, at 3:18:15 | original URL]
I am new to these boards here so you all dont know me but if I could please express myself. I am a married 29 year old male (no kids yet) who has been dealing with anxiety and depression since I was about 19 or 20. Like the rest of you I didnt realize it until more recently, but had been dealing with it for a long time. I spent some time on Paxil CR 37.5 mgs a year or two ago. Worked wonders but the side effects got to me. I dont recall Lexapro helping a whole lot and Zoloft has its pluses/minuses too. Long story short I called and will see my pdoc again next week.
This past weekend I attended a party where I knew I would see people I have not seen in a long time. I drink in order to overcome the social anxiety I have developed. I ended up finishing the night off not remembering where I was and very very drunk and sick. My wonderful wife had to drive me home and take care of me. That was Saturday night. I spent all of Sunday depressed, embarrassed (I am too damn old for this), and my wife said that late into that evening I mentioned how I hated the world and want to kill myself. I dont remember saying that but needless to say I think I hit rock bottom. If you ever knew me you would not believe my story-I hide things very well.
Thanks for reading this. Just wanted someone to say "hi" to in this weird state of life many of us here somehow have found ourselves.
Good job, loving wife, great parents, great childhood, etc etc etc.-yet lots of unhappiness and troubled by anxiety.
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