Posted by portage on June 11, 2005, at 22:55:15
i smoked pot agian today, first time in about a year. i dont know why, because the last time i did i had the worst trip/panic attack, it was terrible. swore i'd never do it again. but this afternoon, my friend offered me a hit, and i was really mellow- a little drunk, so i thought, what the hell. so i took a hit, ONE HIT, and i was stoned-out-of-my mind .. in a good way. for hours. my friends and i sat at the beach laughing histerically, listening to good music all day. i passed out blissfully on the grass. i had a horrible nightmare that someone was stabbing me while i lay there on the ground, and i woke up in the middle of the worst panic attack ever- i couldnt see right- i thought the sky was caving in on me, and i couldnt feel my body- thought i'd float away and my body would lay dead on the ground, i thought i was going insane. and my friends were still laughing, stoned, i was convinced they were laughing at my expence because they had slipped my some kind of hallucinogen. it was awful, i curled up in the grass and cried. eventually my friends realized i wasnt joking, and tried to comfort me, but at the time i was convinced they were conspiring to calm me down so they could take me to a mental hospital.
it lasted about a half an hour, and it was the most horrifying panic attack i've had, and thats saying a lot. just the other day i had one almost as bad.
shame on me.
drugs arent cool, kids.
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