Posted by AMD on March 29, 2005, at 23:15:06
In reply to Re: Cocaine and nose lining, posted by mynamehere on March 13, 2005, at 13:09:30
I used again last weekend -- that's three times in two months. I'm going to my first NA meeting tomorrow.
I am worried I /have/ done cognitive damage, but it's only been about 60 hours, and I probably did a gram or more. So perhaps I need more time before I feel back to "normal." I am just worried now that I ruptured a brain cell or something. I have that spaced-out feeling. Will this pass?
Does one recover from cocaine? I've heard it's more forgiving than methamphetamines, and that over time one can recover. But then I read these alarmist web sites that say every use permanently kills brain cells. I just want to shake this spaced out feeling, then I'll be less paranoid.
Also, will exercise, etc. repair and blood vessel damage I may have done. I've been congested for a few days, which is probably from the cocaine.
Here's something I've pondered. I often read about "chronic heavy use" vs. "recreational use." What is the difference? What is "chronic"? Are we talking weeks, months, years? What is a binge? A few hours, or days? Because although I definitely take a lot when I'm on, it's typically in the course of only a few hours, sitting around a table with a bunch of folks, drinking heavily (yes, I know that prolongs the half-life and increases the effect of the cocaine), and doing lines. I probably did 5 - 10 lines the other night, in addition to a few key bumps. My roommate did some too, but she feels fine down, whereas I still feel miserable. Perhaps my bipolar has something to do with that.
Although I'm obviously addicted (I can't say no), does the frequency of my binges (three in two years, total, all last month) classify me as a heavy user subject to permanent effects? Or would that amount be more or less mild to recover from as long as I stop now?
My lips are dry too, and I'm breaking out. Related? Stress?
I feel like a mess!
amd
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