Posted by rjlockhart37 on August 2, 2017, at 15:05:25
In reply to Re: 2017 till the future, posted by Pontormo on August 2, 2017, at 7:21:13
i know what the discourgement and depression came from, but don't want to direct it at anyone, but long ago i was taken off medications that were vital to helping me stay in school, alot of things happened, and after those situations took place, i went into almost a complete darkness, i didnt talk to anyone, just stayed alone and was estranged from the world, if you go back and look at my earlier posts, they would describe it, many years ago....
but i came to a point where ... i didnt want to stay like that, and for many years i was in gloom depression, everything i was doing, someone would control it, and having frequent fights and disagreements. I take responsibility for the things i did, but i had jobs and was removed during those years because i was so depressed and slow in my work, this doctor and a person would not take action and they left me in that condition. and, that is the truth, i had to make a fierce descion to get out of this depression and make it point to move forward. While this doctor would gladly treat other patience, yet left me in a condition were i was incredibly depressed and slow.
I think not anger or resentment got me out, but i realized i have to move forward, and those 2 people would not help me, left in a horrible condition. It's just like....willpower, you finally get to a point were you say go on, like survival technique if your stranded out somewhere
so...i've grown, and am trying to chnage, i never got engaged with anyone, mentor, or becausei was so slow, and feeling hopeless, like i said i got a survival feeling to get up and get going again.....
i think finally getting to a point where making a major descion, despite circumstances ... is what caused me to change
everything can change like that, and all these years go by so fast, but nothing lasts forever
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