Posted by Dinah on April 21, 2014, at 18:00:12
In reply to Re: He called!!!! » Dinah, posted by 10derheart on April 21, 2014, at 17:48:17
I don't at all feel like everything is fixed. In fact, in my recent dreams about him, my conclusion has been that there is really nothing he can say to cancel the incredible pain his not in some way - indirectly at least - communicating with me has caused.
My husband was afraid to leave me alone for days. He worked from home and checked on me constantly. My work was disrupted for weeks. My stomach may or may not recover.
I suppose he could promise to have something in place to be better next time. But I'm relatively sure that we'd had this discussion any number of times. I even brought him an article. It didn't do much good.
However, some sort of resolution has already been reached. I know for certain he couldn't contact me directly, and that he didn't forget me or discount twenty years of working hard at building a relationship. That was the only thing that could make this at all bearable, and I was determined to believe that no matter what.
I'm so glad I had taken to answering calls with unknown phone numbers. I usually never do that. Every time I reached out for the phone, I cursed myself for a fool for thinking he'd contact me. Yet I did it anyway.
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