Posted by yellowbird01 on March 14, 2012, at 16:36:50
I'm feeling bad.
My relationship with my T is totally falling apart.
I'm feeling unsafe. Not an imminent suicide risk or anything, so no one worry about that... but unsafe. I havent engaged in SI in YEARS until yesterday and I'm having trouble resisting again. I just feel CRAZY. I dont even know how to describe it. Maybe a little bit dissociated? But only a little, not enough to take any edge of the hurt off. Just.. crazy meaning my judgement is wacky, my thoughts arent right, I cant get my brain under control. I'm not eating well and the minor weight loss associated with that is triggering me (very old, long ago recovered) eating disorder voice in my head.
Today I took a walk at the park and then went to the pet store and played with a puppy for awhile. Both of those things helped, but basically only while I was doing them. I also showered today and went to the grocery store.. not things I really feel proud of reporting but T tells me I should count everything. So there we go.
Can someone lend me a coping mechanism or something????
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