Posted by floatingbridge on August 18, 2011, at 22:39:42
In reply to My p-doc, posted by emmanuel98 on August 17, 2011, at 18:29:58
I'm sorry e. This sounds like a painful process. Someone on babble said recovery is non-linear. I need to remember this myself.
I think the other posters have had more insight comments. I'm sending a hug right now. I have experienced the sensation and idea that my pdoc hates me. Seems I go to that place more than pdoc being angry. I guess the angry position would be less painful, maybe at least more energizing. But the grass always looks greener I guess.
Can you work with your dbt person on this? My sense is the feeling of being not wanted is very painful for you, and I remember my dbt therapist helping me to identify the most difficult feelings (like someone being sick of me and leaving in disgust in my case) and helping me abide. Out of that endurance came the sense that I was actually greater than that fear. Whenever I would feel or get a whiff that I was being rejected I would become incredibly dysphoric. It continues to be something I work with.
I dig a pony.
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