Posted by Annabelle Smith on December 28, 2010, at 17:16:40
Being away from my therapist for 4 weeks is hard. We had one phone session last week and if I am not wrong, am supposed to have another one on Thursday. I appreciate phone sessions, but it is different than meeting in person. It is easier to say some things, I think. But there is a presence and type of communion that is lacking.
Being so attached is so hard. Most people-- I would say everyone I know except for maybe two people-- have no idea about this. I hope I am not crazy or bad for this tearing me apart so much.
Would you say that what I feel is transference? I have read about quite a bit about transference in psychotherapy. Sometimes it seems as though therapists seek to use transference as a mode of healing. Other times, there is not intended transference-based therapy but it just happens, sometimes against the therapist's desires.
I wonder what is happening to me. I probably should stop hiding this from my therapist and talk about it openly. It is scary and embarrassing. I am afraid it will make him withdraw. This is a lonely and scary feeling. The attachment is so real yet seems fake and not normal, maybe even somehow inappropriate. But there's no reason it should be. I am not doing anything wrong-- just trying to get better, feel again, and not be empty.
poster:Annabelle Smith
thread:975058
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