Posted by brokenpuppet on July 1, 2010, at 1:47:47
In reply to Re: if T lies to you in your interest, is it lying? » Dinah, posted by deerock on June 30, 2010, at 14:55:40
hi, i thought i'll add to the 'change' dialogue...
i've found my 'changes' to be quite elusive and really hard to quantify and I don't even know how they happened. sometimes i feel like i'm exaclty the same, i still have the same issues that come up again and again and it's very hard to think back and realize that maybe I'm coping slightly better now - because there are times when I'm probably not.
what i did notice was that i was able to do things that i never even dreamed i would do, specific things in my personal life rather than perceived changes in my thoughts/ confidence / personality.. for example: i've done much better at work, my relationship is much better than the previous one (don't know if i can take much credit for this one though), i'm able to stand up to my parents more / make better decisions for myself ... it seems like all the little changes have crept up on me and made me do all those things and I don't even know if I can say how... I mean it still felt as hard, nothing is easy.
so anyway, here i go bragging on about it ;) actually, i'm trying to stay positive now as i've had my last session with my T (i'll see her again in 9 months) and i know that i'll probably fall apart soon and... hopefully cry, which i haven't been able to do yet.
so again, on a positive note, i think the changes happened very slowly, little by little, but they did happen! maybe the thing that helped me was that for a while i gave up trying to measure my self and my progress and just went with the flow.
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