Posted by Dinah on June 30, 2010, at 13:46:27
I don't think it's entirely a bad thing.
And it's not that I see him incredibly badly. Or even that I saw him as all that idealized before.
It's more that the point of view has shifted a bit. I'm seeing him more horizontally rather than from below looking up.
I think it stemmed from some self disclosure on his part. I haven't decided yet whether his self disclosure was a mistake or not. Maybe this was a shift that had to happen for my therapy to move forward. Maybe it's that shift that happens sometimes when your parents are no longer really your parents, but are fellow human beings.
I hoped that it would wear off, but it's not doing that.
I'm really not sure how I feel about it. I still care about him. I still even occasionally call him when I'm really upset. But... I dunno. Something has changed. Definitely not for the better. But possibly not for the worse either, given where I was in therapy. Just different.
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