Posted by deerock on June 22, 2010, at 10:42:57
hello. i saw my T yesterday after a break of about 1 month. i stopped seeing her and after a while started smoking pot heavily which i had stopped before. i did that to deal with the loss i presume.
anyhow, i saw her and she explained that she felt my leaving when i felt like i was not feeling better (stopping therapy) was more having to do with my feeling scared about relying on her and not an actual sign that i wasnt changing and she gave examples of how i had changed. i think she might be right.
she told me to decide what to i wanted and to come see her if i wanted to work with her.i think im going to go back. ill make a decision in the next day or so.
im scared. im still smoking pot. im afraid i wont stop. ive stopped many times before. once for almost 2 years. so i know i can do it. i just am kind of scared that i will always go back to it and never learn to stay away from it for good.
and im scared the therapy wont help.thanks for listening to me. i feel depressed right now. not DAF as i call it sometimes. that means depressed as f*&k. im at work. im functioning.
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thread:951827
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