Posted by Daisym on April 7, 2010, at 13:20:05
In reply to Re: Why do I need my therapist? » Daisym, posted by onceupon on April 6, 2010, at 0:41:10
You actually have lots to say and said it pretty well. It *is* such a hard struggle and it is also one that is equally hard to explain to someone who has lived it.
I often feel broken in the trust area - how can I not trust this person who has never left, never lied and gives out all the authentic signs of caring? And yet...I think I've come to know that I don't trust myself - everyone else is fine - I'm the one broken. And thus the circle.
Maybe it is one of those developmental things. Like walking. A baby can't walk, even though they have legs and are born with the instinct to walk. They have learn, grow and gain strength. I'm hoping this to be true. Because the message I've always received is that I matter because I can do something for the other. Present tense. If I can't keep doing, or my usefulness is over, I cease to matter.
I'm glad you wrote. It is a hard struggle. And I think this really is one of those things that it helps to know that others struggle with it too.
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