Posted by floatingbridge on March 9, 2010, at 17:48:29
My back went out big time last week. Finally, I'm on the accupuncturist's table, face down with cups on my lower back. She leaves. Then I'm crying, 0-60. This lasts for maybe 10 minutes. I'm thinking, I'm so angry I wish I were dead. Then I feel sad--for the girl who was not allowed to feel angry. That's a lot of rage. I barely scratched the surface.
Today, again, the needles are in, I'm alone, and I realize that I am afraid to breath. Really, how long can this type of repressed panic go on for?
Has anyone experienced something like this and made a significant recovery?
It's a terrible not being able to relax. I'd really like to feel comfortable. Right now, I'm chicken little and the sky is falling.
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