Posted by Verloren on January 16, 2010, at 23:14:43
In reply to Thanks, posted by Verloren on January 13, 2010, at 23:01:46
Sorry everyone. I feel bad that I made you worry. I wanted to say goodbye to you all. I didnt want to disappear without saying anything and I couldnt be sure that things were going to turn out well. I had a really rough night Wednesday. I called my Ts emergency line and was able to talk with her. She told me to go to the psych er and they kept me for a day.
Then my T told me to stay with someone and not to be at home alone. So Ive been at my cousins house so that they can watch me. Im in the intensive outpatient program now. Im supposed to work on living skills while Im at my cousins. Doing chores, laundry, organizing my old mail, etc. Also, am learning distraction techniques. Im using music as a distraction. It works for the most part. I recently heard a song though, that really hit home. Ill include it at the bottom of this post.
I dont like not being at home. I feel like Im not trusted anymore and they dont let me go anywhere by myself. I feel like a kid. I hadnt been able to get online because we were not able to pick up some of my stuff from my apt until today. I miss being at home. I feel even more irritable and moodier now. And I hate the IOP so far. Im not allowed to see my T while Im in the program and they would like me to be in it four at least 6 weeks, possibly 8. I do like some of the skills were learning but Im wondering why cant those same methods be covered by my T when we meet 1-on-1? I would feel more positive about therapy if it were as interactive as this IOP is.
Again, thanks for being there, and for continuing to be there. I really need you all (teary eyed)
-Verloren
"Someday" by Rob ThomasYou can go
You can start all over again
You can try to find a way to make another day go by
You can hide
Hold all your feelings inside
You can try to carry on when all you want to do is cry[Chorus:]
And maybe someday
We'll figure all this out
Try to put an end to all our doubt
Try to find a way to make things better now and
Maybe someday we'll live our lives out loud
We'll be better off somehow
SomedayNow wait
And try to find another mistake
If you throw it all away then maybe you can change your mind
You can run
And when everything is over and done
You can shine a little light on everything around you
Man it's good to be someone[Chorus]
And I don't want to wait
I just want to know
I just want to hear you tell me so
Give it to me straight
But, tell it to me slow[Chorus]
Cause sometimes we don't really notice
Just how good it can get
So maybe we should start all over
Start all over again
poster:Verloren
thread:933546
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