Posted by moonshadow on August 22, 2009, at 15:01:55
I was in a bad place today - wanting to s/i so badly. I thought about calling my new T, but talked myself out of it because I didn't know what she could say that would help, and I was worried about her reaction. I also didn't want to bother her. I've seen her for only a couple of months, and am still not secure with her.
She couldn't tell me anything I don't know already, right? At the moment, I didn't want to be told what to do anyway. I just wanted to 'wake up' out of the dissociation.
What happens when you call a T? I wasn't suicidal. It wasn't "that" bad. I just had a hard time not hurting myself, and once I started I had a very hard time stopping. Should I have called her? What would she say?
(She gave me her home # when I started with her, and told me to call if I was suicidal or wanted to hurt myself, but s/i seems like a stupid reason to call).
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