Posted by yellowbird01 on May 13, 2009, at 14:24:55
In reply to Re: A weird experience, posted by FindingMyDesire on May 12, 2009, at 23:32:57
Weird indeed.
FMD, you asked how I'm doing now that it's been a day. I'm doing okay, doing fine with regards to that incident. I really want to pick up the phone and call her, or email, just to see how she's doing and connect for a second.. but I wont. I know she's physically okay and that would be my biggest concern. The desire to contact her is more about just wanting to acknowledge what happened... that I stepped into her "outside life" for a minute and acknowledge the fact that it was weird. Then I want to move on from the topic.. no need to talk about it for hours!
I think you're right that she will ask me about it. I can hear her voice in my head saying "what was that like for you?" :) It really wasnt a huge deal for me.
It was a lesson though about why boundaries are as they are in therapy. I had a hard night last night, unrelated to this incident. Often I will email her once after a session to lie up loose ends I felt like I didnt explain, or to vent, etc... she rarely responds but that's fine. Last night, I considered it but didnt, 99% because of the fact I knew she was having a crappy day and wasnt likely in the mood for any additional crazy. That's why Ts dont tell us what's going on in their lives huh?
I'm still struggling with defining my relationship with her in my mind. It used to be different than it is now. Boundaries got too loose at one point and they are back to "normal" now. I can feel myself resisting and testing it.
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