Posted by fleeting flutterby on April 10, 2009, at 9:14:02
In reply to My T just dropped me today.. like it was nothing., posted by Kenya on April 10, 2009, at 1:29:59
> I was talking to her about my week, and I said that it was really hard to talk to her because she looked like she was so frustrated. She just looked at me, so I said "I don't know what else to say, I give up. If it's going to be like this every week, I don't even want to come back." I was obviously just upset, and she got up and said "well I can't force you to stay here, I'll give you 3 referrals." and I just started crying as her back was to me and said "I don't need referrals." She said "okay, fine" without even looking at me, and I left. I called her and asked her if we could at least say goodbye right, and she didn't respond at all. I feel horrible. I just want to go back in time or something. I don't know what happened, but I'm not okay.
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> - Kenya---flutterby: Oh dear :o(
I'm so sorry this happened to you. The psychologist I used to see said similar to me..... I was sitting there in 10 minutes of silence then I said-- "I don't think I want to be here today"... and then he said "the door is NOT locked, no ones stopping you from leaving".... so, I got up and opened the door and left... that was my 10 minute session....(the "grumblers" told me that he was wishing I'd leave- telling me the door is not locked-- was one of those "between the lines" messages, to me).... it hurt ..... felt as if I'd had a dagger put through my soul....
I guess i wanted someone, just once in my life, to ask me to stay.... never ever had that.... and that day it wasn't to be either. *shrugs*...
sorry I'm not so good about advice on this subject.... still muddling through this myself... I think what others have said is food for thought. so many wise people here.
thinking of you,
flutterby-mandy
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