Posted by backseatdriver on April 2, 2009, at 15:02:59
In reply to Is this as good as it gets?, posted by SLS on April 2, 2009, at 12:22:38
Scott, your post gave me an idea. Maybe there is only so far we can expect to go with drug treatment; no matter what, it is still an individual thing, to take a drug or not take, and see what happens. Maybe the next step is not pharmaceutical but something else.
For me the post-pharm changes have been interpersonal and intrapersonal. Being myself with no reservations (as Anthony Bourdain might put it) has been the curriculum.
Doing this creates intrapersonal anxiety for me because it is unfamiliar behavior and I make mistakes. As I struggle to manage the internal conflict, this in turn provokes interpersonal conflict, as my inner anxiety makes me either withdrawn or clingy, depending.
Coming out of my intrapsychic closet also creates anxiety for the people in my life, who are used to dealing with a soothing and reassuring person who is usually very present and not asking for much. If I am not careful about boundaries, their anxiety can spark mine, making the spiral even worse.
Change is hard. :( I take small steps.
BSD
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