Posted by Sharon7 on February 5, 2009, at 5:39:30
In reply to Re: If my Therapist doesn't call...... » Sharon7, posted by wittgensteinz on February 5, 2009, at 4:35:25
Hi Witti. Thank you so much for your message. That is going to help me a lot. I did not think it was harsh at all. I want someone to tell me the truth because I know what's going on between my ears (and in my heart) is all screwed up. I KNOW I'm being unreasonable and you really did give me something to think about.
I think you're right, that I AM testing her, and I think I've done that with intense relationships in the past. It's almost like I'm trying to prove my theory that no one really cares is correct. So I push them away just to see how commited they are to me and if I don't get the result I'm looking and hoping for, I'm like saying (to myself) "see? just look how risky it is going to be to care about this person? They obviously don't care about you." Boy, my therapist would love to read what you wrote! I know she would think you were spot on.
Thank you again. I'm not looking 'just' for sympathy when I post here. I really do want others perspectives because I'm learning there's lots of things I did not pioneer in the field of nueroticism. (that doesn't look spelled right.)
I'm really going to consider what you said. Have a good day! I'll update when/if this "stand off" ends, and you're probably right that it's going to be up to me to end it.
Sharon
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